Trying to control my rage
Is like putting a lion in a cage
So I burn the sage to release some of these negative feelings
But I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs climbing up these rungs on this ladder to success
While thinking about my regrets causes my heart to beat faster in my chest
How do I forget those times
The minutes go by every second I try thinking about the loved ones that I’ve lost as I look up to the sky reminding me why I’m still here
I tried to be tough and it just wasn’t enough addiction destroyed myself as well as the ones that I loved
It removed God from the picture because with the devil I got everything quicker
But I became sicker and sicker doing coke drinking liquor
Stealing from stores just to score when all I wanted was more
And after everything that I’ve seen now that I’m trying to stay clean
These people who haven’t heard from me in a while they ask me how have you been
But I don’t have an answer so I try to lie and say that everything is ok
But what’s going on in my mind it’s like a fight everyday
Should I go should I stay asking God for direction
Cause I’m tired of looking in the mirror and not liking my reflection.